Thoughts

Sometimes, I do think a lot.. I begin to philosophize about life...

Actually I needed to come and write my thoughts here, because since yesterday, I am thinking in english in my head. It happens to me sometimes, and I can't explain why. Although I'm french, I have thinking language disorders, if we can call it that way... Everyday I speak and think in french, but when I come to be alone, I start thinking in english. I don't know if it ever happened to you. I'm not telling my english is perfect, but I even come to speak to myself in english...

So yesterday I started thinking about my future life, as I am considering my further studies. The choice is hard and I realized that until now I don't know what I want. That's why a lot of questions arroused in my head. Would I rather have an easy job, and be happy with it and have time for myself ? Or a hard but fulfilling job, which would be time consumming, letting me less time with my loved ones ? (family, friends...)
What is more important in life, aside from happiness and health, love and friendship or personal success, meaning money ? Come to think of it, my motivation would be money... But combining success and money can be possible no ?

So here came my big thought : choice. Yes, life is made of choices. All along the path to happiness, you have to make decisions, which can change the whole thing.
I was thinking about going to a business top school, then I realized, if I'd do that, it was only for the further possibilites... good job, good pay. But do I really like that ? My first love is music, but it can't be my life. So I started looking, and I realized I liked languages and culture. Journalism studies, translator studies ? I think I'll apply in the 3... But this does not answer my question, what do I want in life ? I want to spend time with the loved ones, I want to party, I want to travel, I want to discover, I want to learn, I want to think... I want to have fun, without thinking back.