Friday, November 30, 2007

Thoughts

Sometimes, I do think a lot.. I begin to philosophize about life...

Actually I needed to come and write my thoughts here, because since yesterday, I am thinking in english in my head. It happens to me sometimes, and I can't explain why. Although I'm french, I have thinking language disorders, if we can call it that way... Everyday I speak and think in french, but when I come to be alone, I start thinking in english. I don't know if it ever happened to you. I'm not telling my english is perfect, but I even come to speak to myself in english...

So yesterday I started thinking about my future life, as I am considering my further studies. The choice is hard and I realized that until now I don't know what I want. That's why a lot of questions arroused in my head. Would I rather have an easy job, and be happy with it and have time for myself ? Or a hard but fulfilling job, which would be time consumming, letting me less time with my loved ones ? (family, friends...)
What is more important in life, aside from happiness and health, love and friendship or personal success, meaning money ? Come to think of it, my motivation would be money... But combining success and money can be possible no ?

So here came my big thought : choice. Yes, life is made of choices. All along the path to happiness, you have to make decisions, which can change the whole thing.
I was thinking about going to a business top school, then I realized, if I'd do that, it was only for the further possibilites... good job, good pay. But do I really like that ? My first love is music, but it can't be my life. So I started looking, and I realized I liked languages and culture. Journalism studies, translator studies ? I think I'll apply in the 3... But this does not answer my question, what do I want in life ? I want to spend time with the loved ones, I want to party, I want to travel, I want to discover, I want to learn, I want to think... I want to have fun, without thinking back.

2 comments:

Juliet said...

I usually think in english (and my english continues being orrible)...

choice is hard as word...life is always a choice...often we try doing something good, something important, but often we can't be what we should be. nowadays work mains MONEY, and i hate it...i'd like be what i want, but without money in this world we can do nothing.

can i link your blog in mine? you can do the same thing...let me know...bye.

Stella said...

Yes, money, always the same thing... Without it, well it's almost impossible...

Of course you can link my blog, i'd be glad to do the same !